F is for.....

FRIENDSHIP

Do you ever wish you could turn back the clock? I admit it...I do. I am a 30 something mom, working full time on ebay, girl scout leader. And don't get me wrong. I love my life. For the most part. And I have friends. Obviously if you are reading this, I consider you one of them. I have people I could call if an emergency arose and I needed a sitter for Madison. I have people I can call if my car breaks down in the middle of the night. I have friends that mailed me books just because they knew I wanted to read them. I have friends that have loaned me 20 bucks when I didnt have the gas to get madison to school. I have people I enjoy chatting with. I have friends. What more could a boring old 30 something mom ask for?

But the thing is...do you remember being young? That friendship bond that was unbreakable? Back when people didn't drift in and out of your life depending on circumstances of theirs? Back when you would not know of any place you would rather be or any person you would rather share it with? Before conversations turned to school or scouts or soccer? When you knew that no matter what someone had your back?

I miss those days. Don't get me wrong. I am still friends with the same people. But over the years we have drifted apart. So even though in my heart they are still my BFF. In reality, I don't know much about their lives anymore and vice versa. I miss the fun. The spontaneity. The craziness. And knowing that that person can see me at my best or at my worst and still love me just the same.

Just a fleeting thought in my overflowing mind. Friendship. Does the definition of it change over the years? Or is it that what we need from it changes as we grow?

I think Madison has the friendship thing right. She has many many friends. But there is that one very special friend. And they have 'grown up' together. They've known each other for five years now. And just last week on her birthday, that was the one person she wanted to spend it with. Much to my dismay, it didn't matter if I was there or not LOL.

But as a 30 something working mom and girl scout leader.....and very avid reader....I am glad for the friends I have in my life now. And glad for the friends who have been there for years no matter how distant we may be. And glad that those wonderful memories are burned in my heart forever.

In a sort of "ode to friendship" fashion....here is my baby growing up with her BFF Tori. May they be 30 something moms and still the very best friends....

and for all my friends who read this...dont worry...I got ya back :)